i miss how we used to bond together.
when i was still young, those times when i cry because i dont want to be away from you. and only be able to meet you only on every friday and saturday still haunts me. how much i missed you. how much i cried. i will always remember how you used to use your lunch hours to come all the way to my school and sneak in just to peep at me when i was having lessons . i was so young then. i was 7 or 8. i dont deserve this. i dont deserve not having a mum to watch me grow.
The time when you were teaching me things that i dont know yet and every perfect and happy moment we've had.
i'm sorry that i couldn't be the daughter you wanted me to be. i'm sorry that you cant compare my exams results to other children.
i'm sorry for the things i've done that might have hurt you.
im going to be 21 soon. and... i guess.... you are getting married in a few months time and moving back to hong kong. leaving me once again. but then, i never really did have you. i used to see you once a week. then once a month, but now, maybe once a year? i dont know.
i dont want you to leave. but that is just be being selfish. i hope he treats you well. i hope he loves you. cause if he doesn't, i will break his face.
i wish i could design a wedding cake for you. maybe right now, thats all i can give. you once told me that you wish you could ride my car. i'm sorry that i cant give you that right now, but i promise one day, i will be able to drive you around.
love,
your only daughter
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